Day Two

i can't believe how amazing my brothers are.

how handicapped i feel to have fear and pride as components of my constitution as a human, among other things.

i am trying to focus on what i have to be grateful for. i'm trying to live locally in time and space. everything so far has worked out, so i ought to extrapolate that trend and assume everything will work out. my lowest self takes over without my conscious mind sometimes and starts to scheme how to quit, how to justify renting a car to the next stop...

i keep seeing things that remind me of mom. we ate at "mom's diner" the first night. andy and i remembered being so excited because of a continental breakfast on a road trip with mom, when we were little. i then asked, "so what's different now?" there was an arby's.

i really don't want to acknowledge negativity, but i'll say that leaving NJ was a delight. arriving in Philly, there was a sign that said "share the road" with a picture of a car and a cyclist. not the sentiment in NJ, in our experience. hopefully the deleware was my rubicon - in the most humble way possible, and just for today.

a quote that i got from my friend holly via Al:


No one behind, no one ahead.
The path the ancients cleared has closed.
And the other path, everyone's path,
easy and wide, goes nowhere.
I am alone and find my way.